A Case of the "Monday's"

Monday, August 03, 2015 Aimee Larsen 0 Comments

SCREAM!  I had thought I turned on my alarm for this morning so I could go for an early morning run but I didn't and I just kept on sleeping.  I however was happy for a minute when I woke up and it was just 66 degrees outside and I discovered I was 1.8 pounds from the goal I had set for myself before my trip this week.  This week is a big week for us and I'm a little overwhelmed with everything that is about to go down.  I have meeting this evening, football practice for the kids starts, a trip to Dallas, and I need to show my kids some summer fun daily and keep my house and laundry clean and make sure the bills get paid.

I got up, got dressed, drank a Spark, I put on my running shoes and headed to the track.  My hamstring is still hurting but I ran anyway, sort of, I walked more than I wanted to and didn't go the distance so to speak.  I got heated in the checkout line at Costco over the price of a watermelon plus I get heated shopping anyway.  I felt super defeated as I heated up.  My morning was turning out to be a big wash...pooey.  A sad little run and no watermelon for the kids.

I pulled into the drive to see my husbands pile of car junk that he is working on and took a picture to post on social media with words of disgust.  I did, and deleted it.  The negativity is just pouring out today.  I cried.  I walked past the pile of new football gear, mountain of shoes, dirty dishes, and walked straight into my study and straight to my Bible.

Tearfully...sobbing actually...I called out to God for help.  I'm overwhelmed by the sense that I'm not living up to my own expectations and just a big failure today.  I knew I would read the scripture I needed as long as I asked for it.  It's His Word that he uses to speak to me so I have no doubt that I will read exactly what I need to as soon as I opened my Bible.  After a few twists and turns through scripture I came to 1 Peter 5:8-11

Be sober, be vigilant; because[a] your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world. 10 But may[b] the God of all grace, who called us[c] to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. 11 To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.
It was then that I realized that a roaring lion was trying to devour me today.  Whew!  I tell you it makes my heart pound knowing that there are women all over the world who are feeling just like me today.  That we feel defeated, that we can not do it all right.  That we fail as moms and wives.  That we can never get ahead.  That we will forever and ever be trying to find balance.  It wasn't me failing, it was the evil one telling me I was failing..

Truth is we aren't going to do it all right...we are going to have "fail" moments.  But let's go back and read that scripture again.

The only one that is telling you that you are a failure is the devil.  He wants you to believe that it isn't okay to make mistakes, to mess up, to fall short...truth is.  We all do it.  We all have dirty laundry, piles of stuff laying around, dishes that forever need washing, coworkers that rub us the wrong way, cashiers that don't listen, gas lights that come on, muscles that ache, alarms that don't go off...it happens!  That's life!  While we are suffering for these days and feeling defeated God is looking down on us and saying "don't forget about Me".

So, as I lifted my head I said...thank you Lord!  Today is going to be awesome!  Thank you Lord for giving me renewal, for giving me hope, strength, and seeing me for what I am...a child of yours who just wants this life to lead me back to You.

As I'm sitting here...my alarm goes off at 12 (noon).  Weird huh?  Let's just say that was all in God's plan for today and that it's time to start my day again with a new perspective.

Prayers for you my friends.

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